"Putting down the thoughts in words make them more clear". With this in mind, I am penning down my thoughts, my likes and a few more incidents of my life here in this blog.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Angel in my life
People who read my blog and who know me personally are well aware how close I am to my mom and the priority I give to her in my life. What other day would be most appropriate than today to express my gratitude to my mom and to let myself reminded how much gifted I am. I am sure everyone have their own kind of bond with their mothers. But very few like me can hold every type of relationship with a single person. Yes - name any relation - friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, sister, kid, companion, shopping mate, guide, teacher, philosopher, enemy, stranger - name anything and I see that in my mom. She is everything to me many a times and I am what I am today because of her. Wish you a very happy happy Mother's day mummy. Not alone on this day, but I would like to wish and thank you all days of all years for being the way you are.
You have always been my inspiration and will remain to be. You had pulled out my maximum strength and let myself know about my own capabilities. The trust of yours alone had taken me to great heights. Your expectations upon me have been the positive vibrant for me always. The never give up attitude of yours in fighting for a beautiful life for your kids - I can never make people understand that fight with my silly words. But I can feel that and I understand that completely. A small thank you would never be enough for all that sacrifice and for all that toil. Let me just make u feel proud today by letting you know how much I owe you and what difference you had brought in me through this blogpost.
I remember the days when I recite my lessons to you from the first page to the last page. If I said something wrong, I wish to recite it again from the first so that I finish it error-free and you used to be so patient enough to listen to it any number of times. I look up to your patience always. And the nights when you used to sit beside me with pin drop silence at home not to disturb my studies and the early morning wake up when I had to attend my extra curricular classes. Never had been a day missed by you to wake me up at the right time - be it when I was a kid, when I was doing my schooling, when I was in college and even today - more than my alarm I trust you. Even after well planning, Akka and I never get to sneak silently out of the room in our childhood. Though your eyes used to be closed and we think you were sleeping, but you are always awake in your brain for us.
It was your continued effort,care and love that made my immune system a little stronger than I was earlier. How much I have troubled you by falling sick every week and you got to carry me every saturday to hospital and the never stopping puking of me. I am really sorry mom - I didnot know what to do that day to keep myself healthy. And how funny I was to keep nagging you every day with my 7 o clock crying and telling you some 100 times a day that its boring. The change today you had brought me - I am healthy enough to take care of myself as well as you :) and It is now you who has turned to tell me that it is boring :)
The way I look today as a matured women - my features and my complexion - I am so proud to resemble you. I feel more than happy, when someone tells me that I am a twin of my mother, though it s not true 100%. I miss those night outs we used to do talking about everything under the sky. Usually the talks start with the family issues then it just moves to the nature of men around us, slowly to next level of feminism. Our topics of talk had touched many a times about communism, socialism, capitalism, globalization, Local, Indian and world politics, History of India, History of world, civilizations, religion, epics, literature, art, books, architecture, debates, reviews, singers, auteurs, artists, writers, singers and of course romance. What have we missed talking about mom?
Over a period of time we both have both acquired similar taste in many aspects - be it listening to Vani jayaram's song, or watching KB's movie some 20th time, or shopping for a beautiful kurta at a minimum price possible or getting tired of people criticizing our way of life or criticizing ourselves and our own actions or gaining enormous energy to roam around doing errands for others in the family or the style of organizing and planning everything we do or striving to be independent and self dependant at any cost or crying and consoling each other thinking about our lives or laughing madly and enjoying small things around us. We have become quite inseparable over the years.
Apart from the books I read, The knowledge I gained from you is countless and you never stop to surprise me by giving me facts and figures about the world. The Wit and the wisdom installed in me by you had redefined the way of my thinking. You are my best as well as my worst critic at times :P. How come you have never felt tired of explaining me the solution to the same problems for which I come to you every now and then. You had always pampering answers to me for everything or atleast you show me the way to find out or at the minimum you be a silent listener to me. And you can never stop your brain thinking about your children. How many times akka and I have asked you to stop living for others even if it was for us and to start living for yourself. You remain the same mom and you can never change and is that nature of you makes you that great?
The vibrant I see you in your eyes whenever I skype call you and the big smile that reach your lips everytime you see and you cuddling me - I wish to get you as my mom every time I get born in this world and get your love the same way I do today. People call me sometimes that I am over pampered but am I mom? I guess no - I have not been taught by you to behave so that you got to reprimand me anytimes. And I shall never give a chance to get upset with me and I will try till my last breath to make you proud enough. I am sure only then I will be cajoled by you like this. :)
And finally It would not be fair enough if I miss to thank my chithi and my periamma who at times have taken the role of my mother and have given me the same care, love and affection. The responsibilities you have taken and the steps volunteered by you both, and being by my side whenever I need support, the motherly touch and the concern for me - I am grateful to you both as well. Neither me nor my mother can repay for what you have done to us. Wish you both a very happy Mother's day. Thanks for being there always for me.